Still waiting @ the station...

FAIL once again

BFMFN (you figure out what that stands for).  Which I already knew since I started POAS 7dp3dpt.  It still doesn't make it not suck.  Hey, at least I got to drink @ drug company expense last night without guilt: 2 glasses of red sangria & 1 white chocolate raspberry martini; helltotheyeah!

I called DH to tell him the news just now. Even though he knew my pee sticks were negative he was so hoping for a miracle. He said he "feels sick to his stomach"; I could tell in his voice he was trying so hard not to cry.  In past failed treatment cycles he's never reacted like this.  Poor dear. 

The one bright spot is we do have a frosty.  S/he is moving to my RE's new practice in the near future.  However I'm not sure if we'll do an FET with it or just move into another fresh IVF cycle.  I'm 33 & if this had worked I'd have been 34 when I was due.  So not old but getting awfully close to that magical 35/AMA red flag they stick on your chart.  I'm not diagnosed as DOR/PM but given my egg issues I'm kind of leaning towards fresh cycle in the hopes we can get another frosty (or more) as insurance.  Something to discuss with my doc for sure.  In the meantime, we'll be taking a cycle or 2 off to recoup financially, physically & mentally.

Totsicle!

We have a frosty!  Of the 2 they were watching to possibly freeze 1 made it.  I am both stunned & so happy. 

Cheech & Chong

Meet Cheech & Chong:

Hopefully they snuggle tight in til next spring. :)

Obviously, we transferred 2 this morning.  They're both 8 cells with minimal fragmentation.  I cried when the RE (not my regular doc) gave me the photo.  The poor thing thought there was something wrong; I had to assure her they were happy tears as this IVF has been a completely different experience from the 1st, but in a good way.

The other 2 embies are still going but were 7 cells.  As long as their growth is on target come Tuesd ay, we will freeze them.  So, we could end up with a frosty or 2.  We also could end up with none, but the very thought it *might* happen is thrilling.

I started PIO shots the night of retrieval & add Vivelle Dots tomorrow, changing my dot every 3 days.  My mom has been doing my shots since Vid isn't a fan of needles.  He's going to have to learn if we do end up pregnant though since they are going out of state for a week at the end of the month.

Beta is 8/23/12.

4

Of the 10 retrieved 8 were mature & 4 fertilized.  I call back tomorrow to see how the 4 are doing.  If any are "meh" then I go in Sunday for a day 3 transfer.  They'll still watch any that are left for freezing but practice policy is you need @ least 4 good embies to do a day 5.  If they're all waving "yay flags" then we do a day 5 transfer on Tuesday.  In a perfect world we'd transfer 2 & have 2 to freeze but like everything else, assume nothing, right?

10

We got 10 eggs at retrieval this morning, exactly double what we got with IVF #1.  While it remains to be seen how many are mature & fertilize, I am very happy we changed protocols.  I start PIO tonight & will get a fert report tomorrow.  Like last time, we are doing ICSI.  We're hoping for a 5 day transfer.  

The Odd Life of Timothy Green

Saw this trailer for the 1st time tonight:



How many of us infertiles will try burying a box full of wishes for our nonexistant child now & hope a 7 year old pops up in our garden now? Eff you, Disney.

Retrieval set!

Thursday morning it is!  I take 1 final night of stims today, trigger tomorrow & get to fight Boston traffic during rush hour Thursday morning.  Here's to hoping I can recreate the picture above (or at least get better results than last time)!

Not cancelled!

So adding Menopur appears to have done the trick. Lefty's cyst has not grown but follies on both sides have. They're all in the 13-15 range now. I'm waiting on b/w results but I will go back for more monitoring on Monday & by then should be ready to trigger for a Wednesday retrieval.

Crap. Crap crap crap.

I went in for more monitoring this morning. The only thing that's grown is the cyst on Leftie that was there @ baseline. None of the other follies have really gotten any bigger. RE talked of cancelling the cycle if things are still the same @ my next monitoring appt.
FML.
Anywho, I will continue with the Follistim & Cetrotide for the next 2 nights. I will also add Menopur as of tonight & go back on Friday. My RE is as in disbelief as I am about this given in the 8 IUIs I did with her I never had any issue with cysts or follie growth.

I don't know whether to laugh, cry, or drink.