Rhetoric, Christmas Cards, and Infertility: A Season of Silence

Found this while searching for something on Youtube & just had to share:

Looks like I'll be upping my Zoloft dose again

Remember this post?  I do.  Well, guess what?  Yup.  I won't even post the word because chances are you're infertile & already know what that word is, but suffice it to say I will be on my period & wearing pj's while sobbing & drinking wine straight out of the bottle come June 2013 when I see the blessed news posted all over Facebook.  And don't give me the "Oh, but you just might be 6 mos along then if IVF #3 works."  Spare me.  We both know it's already a BFN & I haven't even started stims yet.  Maybe my mood's just foul today (for this & several other reasons I won't even go into now) but if it wasn't for the fact a friend was kind enough to donate leftover Menopur to me which expires @ the end of the year, I might not even be cycling.  I'm just not in the mood to inject myself with meds when all I end up with is my period just like every other month.  Looks like I'll be upping my Zoloft dose again.

New beginnings

We closed on our new house this weekend.  It's a cute little ranch just 1 street over from where we've been renting for the past 3 years.  For only about $100 more than our rent, we now own, with some nice bonuses:  The new place has a good size wooden deck off the back door.  We have central air which was THE selling point for my husband, who is from one of the hottest places on earth yet still complains about the heat in New England for the 2 months it gets above 80 here.  There's a working fireplace.  There's a dishwasher & gas stove, as well as gas heat.  There's a 2nd bathroom (my dream come true!). We still only have 2 bedrooms but since we're infertile & realists, do we really need more room?  Because outside of a miracle we're 99% "one & done", unless we end up with twins or a ton of frosties, neither of which I'm banking on.  And if we do, the basement is unfinished & we could easily put another bed & bath down there.

Also, I woke up to Aunt Flo on Saturday.  Thus, I start BCPs tonight to prep for IVF #3.  I'll be on them for 3 weeks for timing purposes (trying to avoid ER & ET the week of finals) & go in for my baseline on CD3 after The Red Dragon shows again.  This means I may be ringing in the new year with an egg retrieval or embryo transfer, which in turn means beta will be around the hubby's birthday.  I really, really hope his birthday doesn't suck.

Finally, I am on vacation this week from work & Vid is also off since the university where he teaches follows a trimester schedule.  We're bunking our classes this week & really don't care; our profs understand anyways since we're old, married, working full time grad students.  We're driving up to the Montreal area tomorrow & are spending 5 days @ 2 different places thanks to Living Social deals I found.  I haven't been to Montreal since high school (almost 20 years ago) & Vid has never been.  The weather's supposed to be nice; cool but not freezing.  We're just going to take it easy & have a little "us time" before the insanity of cycling begins again.

Nothing!

Nothing!  That's what was found in my endometrial biopsy.  So, while it's nice not to be dying from unknown ute issues, we still don't really know WTF the issue is with our infertility.  Vid has some motility issues but his numbers are fine.  And we seem to have figured out a med combo that matures my eggs & therefore makes them able to be fertilized.  Now if we could only get one (or 2) of the little buggers to take up residence inside me for 40 or so weeks...

Hurricane embryo rescue

While we in New England had some affects from Hurricane Sandy, NY & NJ got walloped.  You've probably seen on TV video of patients in hospitals being evacuated due to no power.  But what about frozen embryos in storage there?  Or them women who were supposed to be having their egg retrieval when the storm hit or in the following days?  It honestly never crossed my mind until a fellow infertile shared this news story.  What an amazing staff!  And moreover, this wasn't the first time embryos have been rescued from disaster.  Read this cool story about a baby born from an embryo rescued during Hurricane Katrina.