Thursday, November 17, 2011

Dear universe: FUCK YOU!

My sister is pregnant. My sister, who is 4.5 years younger than I am, is pregnant. My sister, who just got married in July (4 months ago) is 9 weeks pregnant. My sister, who wasn't even trying, is pregnant. My sister, who I should be happy for but am not, is pregnant.

There's not enough Zoloft in the world right now.

4 comments:

cjdubs13 said...

I am sorry. It's very painful. My younger sister got pregnant the very first month after stopping her birth control while I was on year 2 of TTC. I stopped talking to her for two months because it was too painful. Immature maybe, but I needed too for me. hugs.

ADSchill said...

I hear you hon. My younger sis is 17 weeks pregnant with her second baby right now. She conceived both her babies with-in one or two months of trying.

It makes me sick. Not only did it take me 2 years to get pregnant with IVF, but I lost the two I did manage to concieve.

I'm with you completely. FUCK the universe.

C said...

OMG, I'm so sorry! I've had countless cousins get pregnant just by thinking about it and popping out two more before I can figure out how they're affording that one but I've never had to deal with someone as close as a sibling being pg. Sending lots of good thoughts and wishes for strength your way!

Melissa N. said...

I'm so sorry. My sister in law got pregnant their first month trying, 2.5 yrs into our infertility journey; one of my friends is pregnant with her 4th kid, (2 of the 4 were conceived and born in the time we've been TTC - in 8 short months, it'll be 3 of 4). This universe is royally screwed up sometimes. It really is so painful, and so very unfair. Sending you lots of strength and hugs!