Thursday, August 23, 2012

FAIL once again


BFMFN (you figure out what that stands for).  Which I already knew since I started POAS 7dp3dpt.  It still doesn't make it not suck.  Hey, at least I got to drink @ drug company expense last night without guilt: 2 glasses of red sangria & 1 white chocolate raspberry martini; helltotheyeah!

I called DH to tell him the news just now. Even though he knew my pee sticks were negative he was so hoping for a miracle. He said he "feels sick to his stomach"; I could tell in his voice he was trying so hard not to cry.  In past failed treatment cycles he's never reacted like this.  Poor dear. 

The one bright spot is we do have a frosty.  S/he is moving to my RE's new practice in the near future.  However I'm not sure if we'll do an FET with it or just move into another fresh IVF cycle.  I'm 33 & if this had worked I'd have been 34 when I was due.  So not old but getting awfully close to that magical 35/AMA red flag they stick on your chart.  I'm not diagnosed as DOR/PM but given my egg issues I'm kind of leaning towards fresh cycle in the hopes we can get another frosty (or more) as insurance.  Something to discuss with my doc for sure.  In the meantime, we'll be taking a cycle or 2 off to recoup financially, physically & mentally.

11 comments:

Sunflower said...

I am so sorry. I was hoping that this would work. Glad you have a frostie and plan to move forward.

Jeremy, Censie and Jude said...

My heart sunk when I saw this post. I am so sorry. Take time for yourself and DH. And I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed for that frostie you have!

kthappy76 said...

I'm so sorry for you guys. I hope your next cycle brings you the baby you deserve, until then please take care. (((hugs)))

Sometimes said...

My heart hurts for you. I am so sorry.

cjdubs13 said...

I am so sorry. Hugs. F IF!!!

ADSchill said...

Sweetie I'm sorry. I know this must be just devastating, but you sound strong. Having a plan always helps, no matter what it is. I will be thinking of you and hope you get some good news after your break.

jak said...

ah, shit. i was hoping so hard for you.

i had my second fail this cycle too (we were ivf-ing the same time). we didnt get any frosties, but i'm seriously happy for you guys that you did!

also, at least they got your meds right - sounds like your egg-making went really well. it blows to have a fail, but my doc tells me that each time she gets more data, and that really does help with the next rounds.

best wishes and enjoy your months off by drinking good wine and not giving yourself needles!!

Rebecca said...

I'm so very sorry. I wish that things could just be easier for all of us that are trying to get pregnant.

K9obsession said...

I'm so sorry.....I will never understand why it has to be like this for so many of us.

I can haz babyz? said...

I'm sorry! (((Huge hugs)))

Kristin (kekis) said...

It just sucks. There's no other way around it. I know I'm sorry doesn't help but I am. Know you have a lot of people rooting for you. Lots of love.