Friday, February 3, 2012

1

Of the 5 egss that were retrieved, 2 were mature & 1 fertilized.  One.  Uno.  Une.  Onnu.  Dhaya.  Uma.  Wahed.  Ek.  Ichi.

*sigh* 

So, obviously we have nothing to freeze, which completely freaks me out.  I had banked (yeah, I know, stupid) on having a frostie or 2 as a fall back if this didn't work.  Now, I don't know what we'll do if this turns out to be a BFFN negative like every other cycle.  I suppose we could do another IVF but if we did I would DEMAND a change in protocol.  I've been told over & over again "I'm young" so WTF did I respond so poorly?  I'm still shocked by how this turned out. 

But, we do have 1.  And 1 is all it takes, right?  God, I hope so.  When I called for a status report earlier this afternoon the embryologist said The Lone Ranger was "4 cells & doing exactly what it was supposed to".  "Quality over quantity", I keep telling myself.  So we'll be going in @ 9am for transfer tomorrow morning & the beginning of 2 weeks of neuroses on my part.



7 comments:

Megan said...

Pulling for you and hope that's The One.

Sometimes said...

I am so sorry. I know you must be disappointed and freaked out. But you're right that it only takes one. This little one might be THE one, and then nothing else matters. Try to stay positive, if you can (this coming from me who is feeling sad and scared myself right now and having trouble staying positive).

Fingers crossed for you.

ADSchill said...

I'm so sorry that this cycle didn't turn out the way you hoped. It is always so frustrating! I pray that your lone ranger kicks ass and takes names in your ute.

I guess IVF did help diagnose a bit. I really hope this is it for you!

Julie said...

You are right, one is better than none. I would focus on that and try to stay positive. The two week wait is the absolute worst, yuck.

Belle said...

I'm sending all sorts of super awesome prayers for the lone ranger. Keep us posted and try to do something nice for yourself this weekend. *hugs*

Rebecca said...
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Rebecca said...

Sorry I didn't word my previous attempt at a comment correctly after I hit publish. I had one embryo my first IVF and this IVF too. The TWW is horrible but it seems to be going okay this time. I wish you well and hope that this one Lone Ranger will be the one that brings you a baby. Good luck!